Strength in Tragedy

It all started back in Nov. 2000. My husband was an workaholic and an alcoholic, and I was about leave him with our 2 children. He had a major stroke on the eve of Thanksgiving, and sayed in the hospital for 4weeks and 4days. I stayed with him, and over the weeks, he became a changed man, and I feel in love with him again. I told him from the start that GOD had given him this stroke, and we dont know why, but we would soon find out. On July 3-4, 2003, around midnight, our then 17 year old son came running in and calopsed on our bed, he had found his best friends grandparents brutally murdered, and for hours we watched until his best friend took his own life. We will never know the reason behind his friends awful story on why this happend. Our son turned to drugs and alcohol, and all we could do was pray, cry and be there for him. He ended up in jail, and on Nov. 2, 2004, I took our daughter Natasha with me to the jail to visit Jeramy, who would have known that, that would have been the last time he would see her alive. On Thursday, Nov. 4, 2004, our daughter was pronounced dead at 9:31pm. She had been involved in a terrible car accident. We thought our lives were over. On the way home from the hospital, I told my husband that GOD did not let my daughter suffer. And when GOD took me to Psalms 91:1-4, that confirmed it all. I still suffered from a broken heart, and I still do, but GOD made a change in my life. I was alone one day, and I had a handfull of pills sitting on the counter, I got on my hands and knees, and asked GOD to forgive me for what I was about to do, and HE picked me up and told me NO, that there was more for Him to show me and more for me to do. I kept asking GOD why my daughter had to go, and HE took me to Isaiha 57:1-4. He told me that HE had taken her because there were wose things that could have happened. She could have survived the accident and would have been on a ventalator, and we would have to make the decission to take her off, or, she could have been so depressed over the death of her boyfriend that was with her that night, that she could have taken her own life, or worse yet, she could have been raped, murdered and left for us to find her decomposed body months later. HE didnt want that to happen, so HE sent down HIS ANGELS to take her HOME. I found out what it was that HE wanted me to do, when my cousin lost their 3mth old son, and a friend of mine lost her 22 year old daughter, and family members lost thier loved ones. HE wanted me to talk to them about what he had done for me. My heart still aches every day for my daughter, but GOD has changed my son, brought him home, and gives me the comfort that I need when I get down and depressed. GOD is good, and He is in control. And one day, "I'LL FLY AWAY", AND HE AND NATASHA WILL BE WAITING FOR ME.